You are lucky right now. Right now is metal month. For the next 10 days you have metal energy coming from The Fall season. It might last a little longer than 10 days.
The Moon is metal energy. September 25 to September 27th will be metal energy of moons metal energy. So this is Moon energy squared.
Sunset is metal energy from the Sun.
Every evening, try to find the moon after sunset. Some days, it will not be visible. You need to breathe in the moon using a metal meditation.
During the day, make sure to add hot spicy foods and seasonings to your food. Spicy food is metal energy.
I don't know if you can find a Kendo dojo but if you can this is crucial to you. You need to practice kendo using a live metal blade. Learn the sword.
These things will make you extremely powerful and successful. Because you're only missing that one energy.
For the mental spiritual conflict, when you resolve that, your life direction and mission will be clear. But let's focus on one thing at a time. You can work on your physical metal energy weakness first.