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You need mental water and you need to deflect your internal wood energies from fighting against each other and sabotaging yourself.
Self-sabotage will show up as being indecisive and knowing what you should do but feeling horrible about doing it.
Meditation will help if it's the right meditation. But meditation alone won't solve the problem. It's like a prescription medication. It has to be the right medication from the right prescription and you've also got to change your environment and your habits. It's always about calibrating your entire environment.
You actually have a great deal of potential because you have all three magic ingredients for a very successful and powerful life. You have water wood and Earth. And they're very close to each other. This means you can have a successful career, successful family, grow your wealth, have a lush Happy Forest of Life experiences.
You just need water in your mind and we need to get your thoughts to stop sabotaging your emotions and vice versa.
There are three things we can do. Let's layer them in one at a time.
First of all, find someone in your life that has Earth Energy and metal energy in either their Earth planet or Mars planet.
Just run their birth date through https://futureview.app/bazi to confirm. Their energy will break up your inner conflicts. You can meet other people with this energetic signature in our private Network.
You're welcome to join our private community to be connected with people who are energetically harmonic to you https://futureview.app/community