HKJ
Your inner self and your outer self conflict against each other. They are both yang Earth elements.
When this happens, it becomes very difficult to do what you really want to do. And everything you do is something that makes you feel bad.
It's like a farmer who has two cows but both cows are pulling in the opposite direction. You do all the work and you get nothing accomplished.
You end up right back where you started.
This will be the result of your romantic relationships as well. You will do everything you can to make your lover Happy even if you become unhappy. Then your lover will leave you after you did all the work and you are in the same place that you started back alone.
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