noki
There's one thing you must know and remind yourself.
You are not who you are because of the situations you are in.
If you fail to get into a music production group, you are not a failure you simply failed to get into the group.
If you fail to make a lot of money, you are not a failure. You simply failed to make a lot of money.
If you fail to become happy, you are not a failure. You simply failed to become happy.
There are many energetic things you can do to make yourself powerful and successful and fill your life with abundance. But none of it makes any difference if the way you think and perceive yourself is harmful to yourself.
Learn to think in a way that is always and only enriching and healthy to you.
If you have a habit of falling asleep with your face down, you can find yourself in an ocean and you will drown to death. You can find yourself in a bowl of water and still drown to death.
Before you change anything energetic and spiritual, start with the most powerful weapon you have. Your mind.