"Breaking Free from the Rut: A Struggle for Creativity and Purpose"
I feel terrible. After three years of trying, I finally had a productive week, only to fall back down again. I feel like crying. The people around me live robotic lives, and anyone who steps out of the mold is seen as a fool.
I have to build a music career, but I’m so lazy. I sleep 12 hours a day and spend the rest lying around. The guilt is eating me alive. I know I can do it, but it’s like I’m blocked.
Even the people I thought were friends and collaborators have lost their drive and no longer share my vision. Essentially, I live surrounded by atheists, and it feels like I’m alone in my battle.